Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Just a few minutes ago, I was crying my heart out....cryinggggg...missing my dear late mother. All this was triggered by the sad korean drama I was watching. Suddenly, I remembered that the first and last gift that I had ever given to my mum was just a pair of cheap slippers...less than $5.
But dat slippers make her sooo happy. She was soooo touched that I bought it for her. I could not afford to buy anything expensive cos at that time I had just finished O level and was working part-time at the National Library.
So as I was crying my heart out, my 3 curiosity lil gals at home came in and asked why I cried. So I related to them the story and to my shocked my 2nd doter suddenly oso cried....saying she missed her grandmother. I was very very surprised cos all my gals had never met my late mom. Surprised and touched that she would cry for her grandmother whom she had never met!
Right after that, I was besieged my lots of questions about their grandmother. What can I say to them?.....except that their grandmother was one of the most kindest woman ever. She looked strict but her heart ....ohhh! she had a heart of gold. Never say no to anyone who needed help. Always ready to sacrifice for her family.
Great was her love that my late brother-in-law who even though he was ill with cancer insisted on visiting my mom when she was hospitalised. Mother-in-law and son-in-law love for each other had grown stronger each year until he cared for my mum more than his own mother. Afterall he was her first son-in-law and she had regarded him as her own from day one!
My mom used to massage for women who had given birth and even took catering for weddings. She had her fair share of people who cheated on her but she always take it with a smile.
I miss my mum....I want my mum....can't wait to see her again in the hereafter. In fact, during the period after her death....I always prayed that Allah s.w.t. would allow me to be one of the first to follow her soon after her death just like Siti Fatimah r.a. followed our dear Prophet Muhammad s.a.w.
All I ask is that whether I die young or old, please Allah...allow me to die as your believer. Allow me to die as a muslim and have Your Mercy and Compassion surrounding my soul!
Yand will you fufill my dream this summer?
10:13 PM
